i have finally finished the boring useless pediatrics rotation and started my internal medicine rotation and gotta say, things DONT LOOK GOOD AT ALL ... you see, i've always thought that this is what i wanted to do for living .. to be an internist but i'm doubting that .. ive always heard that medicine is a very interesting thing to study yet a VERY BORING JOB and yeah, they were right ..  i know i know its still early, this is my 2nd day but .. i dunno .. i really really dont see myself an internist .. not because i dont like it, its because i dont think i can do it .. i dont have the memory to memorize all of these drugs, doses and side effects .. i love medicine , its fun but its really hard .. i seriously have memory problems and its only gonna make my life complicated if i choose medicine .. and now i;m stuck not knowing what i want to do anymore ...

lets go through the list of all subspecialities ...

Allergy and Immunology 
I guess this is an option. its a boring thing but atleast its stress free and im only gonna do that if i will be given an OPD to meet people, other than that, i'll be stuck in a lab and this could kill me ..

Anesthesiology
naah, not my kind of a thing ..  ok they get to have some action but i hate the OPERATION ROOM and i cant imagine myself going there everyday

Critical Care Medicine
very critical job, but you'll be surrounded with patients on machines .. so no communications and u'l be dealing with so many scared worried relatives ... not my kind of pain, no thank you 

Hospice and Palliative Medicine
this deals with terminal people .. your aim is to make them as comfortable as possible before they die .. NO WAY !!

Pain Medicine
this is a subspeciality of anesthesia where you are trained to give people pain killers and stuff .. again, not my thing 

Colon and Rectal Surgery
no surgery for me 

Dermatology
no thank you, i wanna save lives and not fix people's faces .. athough tara 6aq me6aqiq 3ala el derma coz its the best thing for private business but no thanks, i'm not interested in money

Emergency Medicine
definitely was always been my option .. the only problem is, i dont know if im capable of working under stress, thats why after my trainee period, i'll try to find an attachment in emergeny department and see if i can fit there .. this is exactly what im looking for, THE REAL LIFE SAVING .. but i heard its such a disaster in kuwait and there are no real emergencies .. plus, i do have problems dealing with stress and this is HIGHLY STRESSFUL ... so .. guess we'll wait and see

Medical Toxicology
checking for drugs and i dunno what .. its not even a job here in kuwait

Pediatric Emergency Medicine
i hate kids, let them die lol

Sports Medicine
an interesting job, but i'll have to be an orthopedic first and trust me, a girl can not be an orthopedic unless she was savage lol .. you literally saw and break bones and stufff .. plus, sport medicine in kuwait means dealing with men mainly since we dont have many females athletes and i dont want a job where i get to meet one kind of ppl .. especially males wai3 

Undersea and Hyperbaric Medicine
they just started one unit in kuwait .. hmmm .. i dunno, doesnt look challenging enough

Family Medicine
6abeeb mostaw9if ?? no thank u

Adolescent Medicine
we dont have that in kuwait :s i dunno where they'd place me if i do it

Geriatric Medicine
medicine dealing with elderly. internal medicine is geriatric medicine coz all the patients are old so same same 

Sleep Medicine
lol i dunno what that is, i guess it doesnt exist in kuwait , plus, GOD, mako she'3el watching ppl while they are sleeping :S

Internal Medicine
i like it but i dont think i can do it .. unless i choose a subspeciality and here are the list of internal medicine subspecialities

Adolescent Medicine
 : ???
Advanced Heart Failure and Transplant
  : no thank you, like i said i dont wanna be exposed to one age group or one gender
Cardiology: ana 9am5a so dont trust me with the auscultation . the depend on their sama3a and i can hardly hear anything lol

Clinical Cardiac Electrophysiology: they get to read ECGS only, very boring

Critical Care Medicine
: working in the icu wih patents on monitors and stuff, not my thing
Endocrinology: hmm guess its a bit interesting, not challenging though 
Diabetes and Metabolism: ive always liked that for personal reasons and for research purposes but then the personal reasons dont exist anymore and the research is dead in kuwait so ...

Gastroenterology: not bad, maybe i can do that ..

Hematology
: dealing with blood diseases .. i used to like it and then i realized it was a bit boring .

Infectious Disease
: 7ADA THE PERFECT JOB if i wanted to move to africa but i dont think i'll ever be able to do that :(
Medical Oncology
 : the reason why i wanted to be a doctor, to help patients with cancer but then i realized that i cant deal with patients loss and death so definitely, not my thing
Nephrology: WAAAI3, I HATE ANYTHIN RELATED TO KIDNEYS 

Pulmonary Disease: again, requires el sama3a o ana 9am5a :P

Rheumatology: joint pain and rhoumatioid .. naaah 
Hepatology: deals with the liver .. too boring
neurology : the hardest of all, but it has multiple sclerosis ad im very interested in this disease .. i'll try to do some rotations and see if i like it but again, doing neurology isnt gonna be an easy job AT ALL 

see, if i choose internal medicine, i should be able to choose a subspeciality or it will be a suicide just to be a general internist.

Clinical Biochemical Genetics: no patients contact so no thank you plus i dont think we have any of these in kuwait
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Clinical Cytogenetics*

Clinical Genetics (MD)
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Clinical Molecular Genetics*
Medical Biochemical Genetics2
M
molecular Genetic Pathology

Neurological Surgery :
surgery, no thank you 
Nuclear Medicine :
boring 

Obstetrics and Gynecology :
u know i kinda liked the rotation but again, it will limit my contact to one group of pts, PREGNANT WOMEN .. i dont like that at all

Reproductive Endocrinology/Infertility:
lol 7adi ma anfa3 :P

Ophthalmology
not challenging enough

Orthopaedic Surgery
not a girl's thing at all lol

Otolaryngology
ENT .. boring
 
Anatomic Pathology and Clinical Pathology*
Pathology - Anatomic*
Pathology - Clinical*
Blood Banking/Transfusion
Medicine
Cytopathology

Dermatopathology

Neuropathology
Pathology
Chemical
Pathology -
Forensic 
Pathology -
Hematology
Pathology -
Medical Microbiology
Pathology
Molecular Genetic
Pathology 
these are pathology subspecialties .. ive always lookd pathology untill i was told that i will have ZERO COMMUNICATION with patients .. and it is VERY important for me to deal with people and not slides durning work .. im a very social animal so i dont think i'll enjoy working alone 

Pediatric

im against bringing babies into the world so go figure lol

Physical Medicine and Rehabilitation
well this is mainly 3laj 6abi3i .. here in kuwait, its usually done by 6eb mosa3id so i dont see the role of a DOCTOR in it :s

Plastic Surgery
interesting if only i didnt have to do general medicine first :(

Occupational Medicine*
ma6lob bel kuwwait but its vague and i dont think you get to see much patients 

Psychiatry*
used to like it until i saw how it highly depends on drugs that numb the patients and turn them into zombies .. not my kind of treatment
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Addiction Psychiatry
been thinking about that alot lately

Psychosomatic Medicine
sounds very interesting, i will be googling it

Diagnostic Radiology*
not my kind of a thing

Surgery
i liked the work in surgery but i hate how busy it makes you

Vascular Surgery
yuck

Urology
lol if i do that in kuwait, i will be killed lol and definitely NO GIRL ON EARTH WOULD WANNA DO THAT 


you know what i realized .. wow .. i sure do have lots of options .. like LOTS N LOTS OF OPTIONS .. but i really dont see myself in them :(
i need to make a decision and i need to do that quickly

 
AND THE QARAR HAS BEEN CANCLED !!!

WOHOO .. GUESS ALL THAT PRESSURE HAS WORKED.  they decided to cancle the qrar so, no one is forced to join the kuwaiti board and we can still apply for a scholarship without going thru the crazy rules.. but i gotta tell you, that man can not be trusted .. we managed yo get a way this year because there aren't available seats for us in the kuwaiti board but he said he's gonna do his best to double the seats next year so .. once he has more chairs, he will definitely stop the scholarships ... i SHOULD REALLY START STUDYING and i should finish my exams and apply for a scholarship before january or i'll get stuck in here ...

the problem is, im still clueless what i wanna do for a subspeciality and that leaves me unmotivated :(

I NEED A VACATION .. I REALLY NEED VACATION MO7TRAMA !!! and i need to get out of town … i promised my brothers that i'd take them on a trip this summer o 6ab3an since my brothers haven't travelled much, bdaw yetfalsafon :P
my initial plan was to take a 3 week holiday and go to Australia but then my stupid dawam wouldn't give me 3 weeks off .. im allowed to have only 2 weeks off after 6 months of work and if i wanted to take 3, i should repeat 3 wks of rotations when im back .. so i decided to take 2 weeks plus some sick leaves .. but still, it wasn't enough to go to australia …

then one of the doctors suggested that we should go to malaysia .. i've been to thailand and gotta say, I HATED IT and i wasnt looking forward for malaysia coz i thought it would be similar to thailand but everyone said its alot better and its different .. plus, my brothers are being soooooo 7areem-ish and all they wanted is to shop .. im taking da twins and razaqo with me so when i asked the twins what are they lookin for in a country, they said THE SHOPS o razaqo answered with his typical answer: THE FOOD .. o eb9ara7a my plan was to pay ALL THE EXPENSES for this trip, i really need to go somewhere cheap :P .. i had good savings but lately madri what happened and i started spending like crazy and drawing from my savings and i ended up with half of my expected amount and its their first trip outside the middle east and i really wanna pamper them so i guess malaysia will do the trick .. actually malaysia isnt bad because, they are having the mega sale so they can shop till they drop plus, there are the islands and the mountains .. so its pretty much everything .. bs ive been to that part of the world and im not a big fan bs inshalla they'll have fun .. and in order to spice things up, we're gonna head to hong kong for 3 to 4 days for disney land .. guess that should be enough ..

we had other plans also but i guess we are sticking to this one ..

we have an apartment in london and we thought about to london but eb9ara7a im not a big fan of europe and although ive never been to UK bs i dont think i'll like it much and i heard that there isnt much to do there anyway but to hang out in malls and cafes .. i heard there are pretty nice historical castles outside london but ive seen enough durning my poland trip and my brothers are interested in nothing but malls .. waaai333 7adhom banat :P

then we had this very crazy idea that im REALLY CONSIDERING for next year .. a eurotrip .. alot of people have done it so its not crazy but its pretty crazy since it includes me in charge of 3 teenagers lol .. i dont even trust myself with them :P we'd take da car or da train and start from austria all the way to munich then to paris all the way down to venice and then to geneva or something .. but a trip like this needs alot of planning, longer holiday and more savings lol and im kinda busy nowdays so i guess i'll work on it next year inshalla .. i still wanna go to australia next year though :s .. we'll see :P

so what do you think ? i could need suggestions and recommendations of places in malaysia if you've been there :D??

so after being buried under the pressure plus the effect of my cousin's wedding high heels, i was craving some massage .. since my 1st experience last year wasn't that good, i realized that i'm not a massage person but i remembered liking the foot massage though .. so while i was googling my options, i read SOME REVIEWS about royal hayatt spa and everyone was talking about HOT STONE MASSAGE .. so i youtubed it and saw the video that drove me crazy : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=56bzeMUWzkw

the video looked SOOOOOO RELAXING and 9eg shayashni and i decided to give it a try .. so i called and booked an appointment …

so the spa is called Elements Spa by Banyan Tree and is located in royal hayatt hospital …
the treatment is called hot stone massage and its usual price is around 60 kd i think but they are having summer promotions till august where you get 20% off on everything so i ended up paying 41 kd for 2 hr massage session .. which is quiet expensive i guess

my first massage experience was in Spa time so i'll be doing some comparison ..

now the place is HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE .. like REALLY HUGE … they have more than 10 massage rooms which are SO BIG, plus a gym and some sort of saloon .. the atmosphere was blackish and goldfish comparing to spa time which was reddish ..
the receptionist greeted me with a very funny english, i had no idea what she was saying and then she took me to my therapist who's name was EYE … i really thought it was freaky .. i couldn't stop imagining a woman with one eye doing the massage for me lol …

so i met eye o thank god, she had two eyes and a better english and she took me thru the maze of alleys and rooms to our place .. the room was also big and you had ur own toilet in it .. so thats an advantage comparing to spa time where u had to change in a common changing room and then walk around the place in your rob and your kasha :P so definitely, you get more privacy in element spa ..

now comes the shocking part .. during the reviews, i heard so many people saying that element spa respects privacy and i dunno what 3owra crap and they provide you with disposable panties and 9ara7a that got me excited , 7aseetehom nas waged mo7trama .. bs i was wrong LOL … the panties was qe99a :/
you see, it was made of this VERY STRETCHABLE cotton material since it was free size and it was TRANSPARENT AND had HOLES in it .. it was more like shabaka and the fatter u are, the bigger the holes will be .. IT WAS A DISASTER !!! i had no idea why i had it on .. KELISH KELISH KELISH ma mina fayda :s … and when i asked the woman whats the use of wearing such a thing, she said '' ITS OK MUM, U'LL BE TAKING IT OFF LATER '' ….. WTF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i geared up lol and wore this VERY SHORT rob, chena rob rayoma … wallah sawed e'3ra2at 7aq nafsi lol .. you start your session with foot bath o eb 9ara7a it wasn't comfortable for me because the rob was too damn short and i was wearing panties with holes under it !!!! SHENO HATHA !!!!

then they offer you what kind of scent you want in the room and it doesn't matter what you choose because you won't smell it lol .. its very faint :P

then the torture begins … starting from taking off your rob and laying down on that bed with a face hole .. it was kind of a problem for me because your face will be stuck n a whole facing the inside of the bed and im a bit claustrophobic so i didn't like that feeling .. you also get to choose the volume of music and lights and 6AB3AN 6AB3AN i asked her to turn OFF THE LIGHTS COMPLETELY :P …

hot stone massage starts with regular relaxing massage all over your body then she uses the stones to do the same movements .. allah yesam7ha 9ela5atni … zain qelna hot stone massage bs mo CHETHY !!! it was too freaking hot .. anyway for me, i liked the regular massage more .. because i like how their fingers temashi6 the muscles of my body unlike the stone which had a dull surface …

so my experience was just normal .. nothing special but again, don't listen to me .. im really NOT A MASSAGE PERSON .. guess my back is numb and not as sensitive as others because i feel NOTHING at all with the massage ..
bs tara i heard some really good reviews on this one so maybe you should try it yourself … anyway it was even hard for me to relax because she kept asking me if i was comfortable maybe a ZILLION TIMES … i wanted to sleep bs hathy athatni, im surprised that she said that some people DID fall asleep durning the session

then after the massage, you get to shower and then you're offered a tea of your choice ( i took the ginger tea which i really liked ) and some fruits ( apples, oranges , salary, cucumber ) . in spa time, you're only given a green apple and a green tea :P 3jbakom wela ma 3jbakom ..

so .. how was my experience? hmmm i guess its ok, i don't mind as long as im being exposed to something new .. will i be going back again ??? naaah .. i mean if i ever needed a massage, i'll probably go to spa time because i really don't like it that much so why spend double the price ??
do i recommend it ? definitely if you are a massage person .. i may even give my friends massage coupons to that place .

anyway, i found a revew online with many pictures if you wanted to see that place :http://www.kuwaitya.net/vb/kw-131.html

oh one last thing .. element spa has more treatment options than spa time .. they even have pregnancy and after pregnancy massage treatments .. i dunno who would wanna do that :s i'll never let anyone come near my belly if i was pregnant :s

some article i found online and found it to be interesting and decided to share it with you
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